Self-denial

Today is Saturday and I don't wanna go out. Wow, that's new. Hehehe. XD But I'm planning to go at the chapel later to have an anticipated Sunday mass. Pero mangyayari lang yun kung di kami puntang hospital later. Anyway, yesterday I spent my whole day at the hospital because my tita was confined there. But we still don't know the reason why. Sabi baka daw typhoid fever eh. Anyway, I stayed there with some of my cousins and titas. Tapos pag-uwi dumeretso muna kami ng ate ko sa house ng mga pinsan namin tapos nagpadeliver kami ng Tapa King. Nilibre kami ni Kuya Day and Ate Jeanne. Hehehe. XD That was 12:00 am already, tapos sobrang di ako makatulog kagabi dahil kakakain lang. Hahaha. XD Pero masarap. Hahaha. XD Di ko kinuha card ko kahapon, kasi di na rin kami oumunta kasi di pa naman ako cleared kaya di ren ibibigay. Hahaha, parang ayoko talaga asikasuhin noh? Hahaha.XD Tapos kahapon ren pala pag gising ko sobrang sakit ng katawan ko dahil sa training. Lalo na yung sa likod ko tsaka hamstring. Actually, hanggang ngayon masakit paren pero nabawasan na ng onti. XD

I wrote a poem a while ago... out of boredom. Well, not really, kasi sa totoo niyan nasulat ko yun dahil nung pinakinggan ko yung Same Ground kanina, ayaw maalis sa utak ko yung word na self-denial so I decided to write something nalang. Tapos eto na yung lumabas sa utak ko at nasulat ko:

Self-denial

Unaffected from what's happening
Disregarding what I'm feeling
Being numb is what I'm practicing
Helplessly unconscious that I'm pretending

I am furtively trapped now
And I can't escape, please teach me how
I need to run and run fast as I can
And find the way back to where I belong

Everything is now clear to me
And no one would understand my confusion
Self-denial is not so strange to me now
And still I can't admit that I'm writing this down.


That's it. Di nga ako kontento eh, parang nainis ako sa huli kasi may gusto pa ko idagdag pero ayaw na lumabas sa utak ko. Maybe i'll do something about it next time. Ipopost ko ulit pag nadagdagan ko na or kung ano man. XD